A while back I came across these neat little covers for cups. They were made out of some balloon type material and they had a hole in the top for a straw. They fit on the top of any cup, making it a sippy cup for the littles! I wanted it! I have a little one and these things were so neat! There was a pack of 3 maybe for like, $20! I wanted them! I also came across this cutting board with a colander in the center so the juices from whatever you were slicing would drain into the sink!! How cool!! It was $20 or so. I wanted it! Here recently I kept seeing people with iwatches! They are so cool! I wanted one!
I want, I want, I want!!! I WANT IT ALL!
On Sunday the message at church was about being trapped in your sin. I was thinking about what mine was. I don’t drink anymore or smoke or go to bars or anything like that so I was wondering what mine was. Now, don’t get me wrong, I don’t think I’m perfect, calm down! I know I have sin! When it’s not something blatant, it’s, sometimes, hard to recognize and admit because we become so accustomed to it. Sitting there in church it hit me….MATERIALISTIC! I’m a lot of other things too but that’s the one that sticks out. That’s the one that worries me everyday. I am very materialistic!! I want everything! I want people to think that I have everything they have. The SUV, the house, the iphone, the ipad. I want people to think that we can just run out and buy whatever we need when we need it. And we can, to a certain degree. But it doesn’t matter what other people think of that. I want to have everything that everybody else has and that’s just SAD! And very unchristian!! We don’t need those things! And people what others think about us acquiring those things easily is not important either.
Luke 12:15 says: Then he said to them, “Watch out! Be on your guard against all kinds of greed; life does not consist in an abundance of possessions.”.
That is my sin! That is what I do all the time! WANT, WANT, WANT! Stuff! Stuff you don’t absolutely need! I think that may be why God hasn’t really blessed my jewelry business. Yes, I have a jewelry business. I make stretchie bracelets and I’m starting to make the long necklaces. But they aren’t selling that well. And I think God is trying to tell me “your not doing this for the right reasons…to make money??”. That is not the reason! The reason for EVERYTHING is to bring glory to God in whatever you do! I haven’t been sincerely doing that. I do it to make money to buy stuff….groceries, jewerly supplies, stuff for my kids, fast food. And I do that because I’m not completely relying on God to supply all of my needs. I didn’t even realize that was an issue until just now. I freak out when things aren’t selling and question and rant and rave at God about why it’s not selling when He’s trying to tell me that all we need is Him. Faith and trust in Him.
Giving up control, of anything, is probably one of the hardest things God requires of us. But it is what he requires. So we have to do it to be in the will of God. And that’s where I want to be.